As usual I'm sitting here just thinking. Right now I'm just lonely and feeling sorry for myself.

I went to visit a friend in the hospital and it was so nice to just visit with a friend. I can honestly say that I miss the support system that I had when we lived in Hayward.

I'm feeling sorry for myself about my husband leaving for almost a month without any contact. A part of me wishes he wouldn't be able to go so we can put this hole military thing behind us, but that's way too selfish of me to hope that. I have been trying not to think about him leaving because I know I'll just be sad but I can't help it because it is coming so soon. I'm thinking about how I won't have anyone to share my day with or anything like that. I'll just be here by myself and so lonely. I just wish that we lived in Hayward still so that alone will really not be alone. Oh the dreams we can entertain.